PERFECTING THE PARAMITAS CONTEMPLATION 2010.7
In this, the seventh of the eight talks, we will take up the fifth of the Six Perfections,
Dhyana Paramita: Contemplation, or Meditation. In the Introduction segment, I pointed
out that contemplation, technically, can be considered a traditional form of meditation.
Meditative practices that preceded Buddhism we usually associate with specific methods
— posture, breathing control, and visualizations — requiring a special time and place, as
well as personal training with a master. Contemplation is usually of an object of some
sort — a teaching, or nature — a subject meditating upon an object. But how do we enter
into contemplation that has no particular object? Objectless meditation, or shikantaza, in
Japanese. And what does it take to develop a mode of meditation that is not limited to a
time and place, one that doesn’t take time at all, but in fact, gives us back our time?
Quoting Matsuoka-roshi from Mokurai, Chapter 3: Zen Mind is Ordinary Mind:
Practicing the Fifth Paramita, Meditation, will bring us to have that
Ordinary mind we talk about in Zen, so that the potential to become a
Buddha—enlightened one—will be realized in our lives.
Let’s look at the more traditional idea of meditation that is called contemplation. Perhaps
it will help to illuminate the difference in our Zen practice. In dhyana paramita, dhyana
has connotations of concentration; and contemplation, I believe, is its more technically
accurate interpretation. My limited understanding of contemplation, is that it was a
traditional form of meditation, prior to Buddha’s advent, in the Vedic and Yogic
traditions, later assimilated into Hinduism. Contemplation, as a method, is not the same
as thinking or analysis, but instead the simple, direct perception or awareness of
something, usually a tangible object.
It is possible, of course to contemplate, in the conventional sense of going over in our
mind, a written teaching, sutra or scripture, or a philosophical argument. But this usage,
more technically, would be along the lines of analysis and intellectual construction.
Contemplation as a meditation technique reduces itself to something much more direct,
much more simple. It is closer to what we consider Zen meditation to be, just simply
sitting, zazen or shikantaza. Contemplation of reality, we might say.
I believe we can understand the process in this way, when one is contemplating an object,
such as a beautiful flower, a plum blossom, or a branch of a tree, or even a work of art.
But most appropriately, a natural object. At first, of course, we have a head full of ideas,
some say a head full of useless information. We know, for instance, that the branch of the
plum tree is a natural object, and not man-made; we know that it is from a tree; that it is
in the vegetable or plant kingdom; that the tree also has a trunk, other branches, leaves,
roots, berries, blossoms, and bark; and that it goes through seasonal changes. We know
that the plum is one of many kinds of fruit-bearing trees such as apples and oranges;
many that we can list, depending on how deeply we have studied the subject. Likewise,
we know something of the cellular structure of the woody branch. We have seen
enlargements, under the microscope, of cross-sections of the branches. And we recognize
the different types of patterns and forms, such as the branching, so-called dendritic form,
or dendriform, that most trees, to one degree or another, usually manifest. We recognize
that it, somehow, is the same branching form that we recognize in the pattern of a river
with its tributaries, and that is found in many other examples of organic geometry that we
witness at different scales and dimensions of nature; the nervous system and circulation
systems of the body come to mind. Or one’s own hand, for that matter.
One can go on and on, with this kind of analytical, discursive thought process, and never
come to any substantive conclusion, about this plum blossom. Or, on into the color of the
petals and all of the colors of the spectrum manifested by other blooms and blossoms, as
well as the unspoken fact that blossoms are basically the reproductive genitalia of the
plant, pollinated by the interaction of bees or other types of pollinating insects; and that
this is one of an infinity of marvelous, symbiotic relationships in nature. On and on and
on, endlessly.
But eventually, in contemplating the same object again and again, we run out of thoughts
about it. And we recognize when the same old thoughts are coming around again, perhaps
in slightly different guise. After a while, we are no longer interested in our own thoughts
about the plum branch. The words plum branch have long ago lost any real meaning.
What we are contemplating, the familiar object, has become passing strange. We have no
idea what it is, really. At this point, our contemplation has become more like Zen’s zazen.
The familiar has become strange.
In the Japanese culture, there is a simple construct for the layers of thought, or mind,
called nen. All of the more complex, inter-related concepts, categories and so-called
higher-level thinking, such as those of science, mathematics, philosophy, geometry, et
cetera, are called third nen. This represents the most complex, interwoven ways of
thinking possible for most people, regardless of intelligence. Perhaps when it comes to an
Einstein, with his famous thought experiments, creating the theory of relativity; or Steven
Hawking and others, developing quantum theory, we might posit that there is a fourth
nen, which is far beyond even the complexity of third nen. In this model, in terms of
brain structure, we could draw a parallel between third nen and the outer cortex of the
brain, where all the higher thinking is said to occur. Einstein’s well-known, outsized
parietal lobes, we might hypothesize to be the locus of fourth nen.
In Zen practice, we enter the zendo in third nen. We bring our very busy mind, spending
all of our time conceptualizing, planning, relating, correlating, categorizing. And tied in
with the demands and constraints of modern life, a great deal of this busy-ness is focused
on the survival of the self; our economics, our jobs, paying our bills at home, putting the
kids through school, paying off our own education loans. And tied into anxieties about
this self; and by extension, our family, friends, colleagues at work, and so forth. One
huge, sticky ball of wax. Very difficult even to know where to start.
But in zazen, once we begin sitting, and continue for a while, the tendency of the monkey
mind to jump around frenetically and randomly, from one point of worry to another, like
a kitten worrying a string, begins to tire, and settle down. At this point, according to this
model, we enter into second nen.
Second nen might be visualized as residing just below the outer cortex, in the province of
the, say, more primitive inner brain, of a mammal or perhaps slightly lower; with
boundary areas in between, rather than hard and fast differentiation. In second nen, there
is less cross-categorization — less conceptual bubbles of mental froth — of complexity
piled upon complexity. There is still awareness of self and other, mind and body: simple
awareness of the wall we are facing, the cushion we are sitting on, incense in the air, the
light level. But less and less of a necessity to think about it. More of a comfort-level in
simply registering this present reality.
So, second level nen, we might say, is also more like the level of awareness of young
children, who have not yet learned the name of many things — let alone how all of these
things are inter-connected through phylum, species, place in the binomial nomenclature
of the biological world, minerals by classification, and so on — but are simply
experiencing, though the senses, the reality in front of their faces.
We are still in namarupa, one of the twelve links in the twelve-fold chain of
interdependent co-arising; still name and form, but not exaggerated analysis, nor overly
complicated thought process, about name and form. It is simply wall, person, zazen,
sitting, cushion. These labels may come to mind, but they have no particular, substantial
meaning, outside of plain recognition. And, in fact, if we think about the label, such as
wall, for some time, it definitely begins to lose its meaning. We see that it is a sound,
which we associate with this actual thing in front of us — that we call a wall — and yet
there is no real relationship between the sound, or the label, to the object being named,
the actual, concrete wall. And, of course, if we sit somewhere else in the zendo, the socalled
wall that we are facing isn’t even the same wall. This is another dimension of my
comment in the prior segment, Effort, that the wall in Zen is not actually the wall in the
zendo. It is in us. So even name and form, namarupa, which is a very fundamental
dimension of our consciousness and intelligence, begins to fall apart at this point.
Next, following the model, in first nen, even naming has fallen away. There is still a basic
awareness of being — that is of the being in the environment, even though those names
are not being applied — nonetheless the awareness is there. But all naming, all
recognition of such divisions in reality, has fallen away. Including, and most importantly,
perhaps, that of self and other, or mind and body. So at this point, a kind of unification
comes about, in which we can no longer even say that we are perceiving self and other,
mind and body, and so forth. If we think about these ideas, they will immediately
resurrect themselves. We know what we mean by the idea. But sitting in our Zen
meditation, they are no longer germane. They have little or no relevance.
So, this would be first level nen. In this peeling away of the brain, maybe we have moved
to the level of the primitive lizard brain, the reptilian mind, in which our instincts are still
intact. If somebody invaded the room in a threatening way, we would certainly and
instantaneously react. But the so-called higher, more complex levels of thinking have
settled down. We are still capable of them, but they have ceased, at least for the time
being, as the center of our attention.
Like a frog sitting on a lily pad, we are just sitting there, very alert, very awake. The frog
looks like it is asleep, breathing through its skin, by osmosis; absolutely still, eyes
seemingly closed. It is as if we have settled into a much more primitive state of mind, and
state of being. But if a fly suddenly flies by, instantly — so quickly that we can’t even see
it — the frog’s tongue lashes out, and in a blink, the fly is gone. So this is a very
deceptive state of awareness. It looks like the frog is sleeping, unaware, but actually it is
completely alert.
Similarly in zazen, everything — body, mind, seeing, hearing, feeling, even thinking —
has fallen asleep, in a sense, but we stay awake. The process of zazen is falling asleep,
staying awake.
Zen might posit that there is also a zero nen, a kind of ground level, perhaps a point at the
very center of the brain, at which even the subject-object, mind-body separation has, in a
sense, evaporated. The apparent boundary zone between self and other has become
ephemeral, diaphanous, so thin that it is no longer subject to our awareness. In this kind
of unification, we cannot even speak of consciousness, in the conventional sense.
In the original translation into English of the Heart Sutra that we used in my home
temple, one line says, until we come to no consciousness also, at the end of the list of
those things that fall away in meditation, the description of emptiness, or shunyatta. Here,
we could say that there is a zero nen, which we cannot even call consciousness. For there
to be consciousness, one entity, so to say, has to be conscious of something else, another
entity. Where there is no duality, no separation of self and other, mind and body, then one
would have to say that, that kind of consciousness no longer pertains. There is no
separate entity.
Now, this notion of nen is a metaphor, of course — an analogy to use — to understand
the process of sinking into Samadhi. It may be most simply thought of, as a profound
process of sensory adaptation, adapting to seeing, hearing, feeling, even to thinking. Once
we have penetrated to this kind of experience, where perhaps even the word experience is
not precisely accurate, then we can say that we have come to the end of contemplation.
We have taken contemplation as far as it can go, in which there is nothing, really,
contemplating anything else. This is shikantaza, just precisely sitting. We are sitting, we
have to admit, but that is not what we are doing, not the point, of zazen.
After this kind of process has been established — and it is a natural process, which, if we
sit still enough, long enough, will set in for anyone — then, any time we sit in zazen, we
more immediately, more quickly, find ourselves in this state of awareness. And, when we
leave the cushion, and go into everyday life, we find ourselves, relatively speaking, in
this same kind of awareness, much less inhibited by, or limited to, conceptualization,
categorization, planning, worrying, anxiety, and so forth. But still completely alert,
completely awake, and ready for whatever happens.
This is also important in daily life; important in the martial arts; and very important in
relationships. It gives us a chance to react to the situations that we face in daily life much
differently; for us not to react in our usual knee-jerk way, in which we generally make
things worse, waste more time, and find ourselves trapped in a never-ending cycle of
repetition, frustration and discouragement.
Beyond daily life, and back to the cushion, this attitude is extremely important to
penetrating to the depths of Zen. Like the frog, we sit without expectation, without
anticipation, but continuing to hold our aspiration to awakening, to direct insight. We do
not know what it is, by definition; if we did, we wouldn’t have the need or the aspiration
to practice.
Let’s explore what it may mean, how Zen meditation, in fact, can give us back our time.
The following will take some time to get back to Zen, so please bear with me.
When we look at how we usually spend our time, it is mostly worrying; planning;
regretting things we didn’t do, or things we did do that we shouldn’t have done. If you
are like me, a lot of your time is wasted second-guessing; spinning our wheels; plunging
into a project without sufficient planning or forethought, and then finding that we have to
back up, regroup, approach it differently. Or, perhaps, trash it and begin an entirely new
project. We do not usually recognize the futility of a line of endeavor soon enough,
unlike the world-class scientist we mentioned in the last segment, so we may spend a
great deal more time on a given effort than is warranted. In this and many other ways, our
activities can waste a lot of time.
Each project is set up in a compartmentalized way, such that it conflicts with our other
projects. And so, like a chicken with its head off, we run in circles, going from project to
project, responsibility to responsibility, pecking a little bit at this one, a little bit at that
one. Eventually a given project may seem to get substantially done. But in a larger sense,
they never really get done. The next project, whether at work, at home, or at play, is
really a continuation of the last project, just in a new phase. When we look at our life in
this way, we can see that we are massively inefficient, in terms of the way that we invest
our time and effort.
An experiment, one that you might try, in order to investigate your personal version of
this syndrome, is based on the idea that it takes us a certain amount of time to perform a
given task, and we know how much time it is. Next time you have a repeat task that you
have to do — one you are not looking forward to — it seems you don’t have the time; or
it is tedious or tiresome. This could be washing the dishes, or writing a letter you owe to
somebody. Filing, or paying bills. Get ready by getting out your stopwatch.
Anything that we are ambivalent about tends to loom large in our imagination when we
are anticipating it. We might think, Oh, I don’t want to do this; I don’t have the time, and
have so much else to do. But then, just for the sake of argument, or experiment, literally
time yourself — give yourself a start time, look at your watch; start, and don’t look at
your watch or clock until the task is done. You will probably be surprised at how little
time it actually takes to complete a familiar task. In our mind, we think of it as a bother,
a nuisance, something we don’t have time for right now, and so we imagine that it takes a
lot longer than it actually does.
If you can pay attention this way, timing yourself in various and sundry tasks that you do
from time to time — your more mundane, ordinary activities — you will probably find
that you waste more time thinking about them, worrying about them, or begrudging and
resenting them, than the actual time that it takes to complete the work.
A similar kind of phenomenon sets in when we look forward to a longer-term
commitment. Such as a vacation or holiday, especially with the in-laws. Or in Zen, a daylong or
week-long retreat. Or, take a more extreme example — a 90-day practice period,
or ango. Looking forward to this kind of event, again, looms large in the imagination. It
seems it will be difficult to take that much time out of our lives, to devote it to this one
event. And we worry that we will have regrets. Much as a given task, such as writing that
book we always meant to write, may also loom large, and seem almost impossible.
If you have planned a major undertaking for some time, such as writing a book, and have
difficulty initiating or continuing with the project, it may seem impossibly large,
insurmountably complex, in the early stages. Most consultants in this area have
suggestions for how to structure the process, to take on any large, intimidating project in
small bites. Back to the chicken, pecking away a bit at a time. If I cannot get myself to sit
down and write the Great American Novel, and get it done by dinnertime tonight; I can at
least, perhaps, jot down a mind-map, or an outline of all the things I want to write, or talk
about; and maybe I can get that done by dinnertime tonight.
All of these are, in a sense, techniques for tricking the judgmental monkey mind, for
countering the natural tendency we have to resist, to let our emotions, anxieties and fears
get in the way of simply doing what has to be done. Analysis paralysis, some call it.
Over-thinking everything.
It gets even more complicated when the projects and tasks that we are involved in include
a team of other people, with whom we have to cooperate, and coordinate. We have to
depend on others, in order to get anything done. Especially in those cases, we can find
our interpersonal relationships, emotional engagements, and misinterpretations of the
activities and motives of others, getting in the way, more so than when we work on a
solitary project.
All of these ideas, concepts about reality, and about how we function in reality, come into
play when we are considering our simple practice of Zen meditation. If we are aware of
these tendencies, then we can take measures to counter them, or at least recognize them,
when they come up. The monkey mind sometimes manifests as more of a badger,
badgering us with relentless self-criticism. We suffer, and then, blame ourselves for
suffering. Double jeopardy.
We may even find ourselves approaching our meditation practice, and our Zen practice in
daily life, in the same way. We may think that everything that we want to do, to support
our Zen practice, necessarily takes away from, and competes with, our responsibilities to
family, to work, to our own rest and relaxation, or entertainment. We continue to view
everything in the same, competitive framework.
This is partially, even largely, a product of relating to time in the measured sense. D. T.
Suzuki, the great Rinzai scholar and educator, in one of his early books introducing Zen
to the West, said that the invention of measured time was a great discovery by
humankind, because it allowed the development of agriculture, and the assembly line —
even the industrial revolution — based upon a linear model of cause and effect, time-andmotion
efficiency studies, et cetera. But at the same time, he pointed out that it was a
great spiritual tragedy, because people took this idea to be the way time actually is. Thus,
time became a commodity — something that can be gained or lost, something we would
try to save; and we certainly do not want to waste any time. Wasting time is considered a
major no-no, almost a sin, in our culture.
When we approach dhyana, meditation, in this way, we are, as Joko Beck says, doing one
thing the way we do everything. In other words, we try to fit Zen practice into the same
box that we have put everything else into, in our life; so that it is simply another
compartment that we have to manage, balancing out with everything else. And, as long as
we are slave to measured time, our perception of the experience of time is bound to be
distorted.
The nature of time that we invest in meditation, is subject to the same distortions as in all
the other areas of our daily life. We think we can gain time, lose time, save time, and so
on. Fraught with expectation in daily life, try as we might, it is difficult for us to sit still
and quietly, to approach meditation without expectation. Then, we become discouraged,
frustrated, and want to give up. Zen, zazen, we think, may work for others, for everybody
else, but it does not work for me. We become self-critical; this is where we begin to fulfill
our own expectations.
These expectations amount to, What would a guy like me do in a case like this? Well, I
would probably screw it up. One way or the other, we prove to ourselves our foregone, if
unconscious, conclusion, that Zen may be true, and it may work for everyone else, but
there is something wrong with me, personally. Somehow it doesn’t fit. We are looking
for the escape hatch. And sometimes, we think we find it. People think they can quit Zen,
even after years of practice. And, in a sense, they can.
But actually, in a larger sense, we cannot quit Zen. We cannot quit because we cannot
start, Zen. We cannot begin Zen practice. We are already doing it before we know about
it. Most people begin practicing Zen with the idea that they have heard something about
it; they understand that it is about understanding life, and so forth. So they think, I’ll go
check this out, I’ll practice Zen, and maybe I will learn something about life, which, by
the way, they are having difficulty coping with. And this is true, as far as it goes.
But after some time, there is a turning point reached, where we begin to see that, actually,
Zen is not about life in that way, but life is actually about Zen. That is, life is about what
Zen is about, as it turns out.
And so our initial reasons for engaging or entering practice fall away. We may be able to
articulate a different reason, from time to time, which may not make as much sense,
logically, as the initial reason. And so the process continues.
In Zen, it is likened to peeling an onion, this process. Buddha used a parable, or
metaphor, of a monkey peeling an onion, to illustrate this process. The outer layers of the
onion represent the obvious difficulties that we have in daily life. They translate into the
obvious reasons that we might enter into a practice such as Zen. As the monkey peels
away these layers to see what is underneath, naturally it finds more layers. And gradually,
more quickly peeling away layer after layer after layer, finally what is left in the
monkey’s hands, is what is at the center of the onion, which is, as we all know — if we
have ever peeled an onion — emptiness. On the ground is a pile of onion peels, all the
reasons we were investigating this matter, to begin with. They have all fallen away, fallen
aside, and here we are, left with the emptiness at the center of the onion. And, perhaps,
tears streaming down our face.
At this point in our meditation practice, we can no longer identify, in any logical way, the
reasons we are pursuing Zen. All the reasons have fallen away, and yet we still sit. There
may have been moments of insight, perhaps very shallow, or sometimes quite profound.
Amongst the pile of onion peels on the ground may be many of our habits, most all of our
concepts, and a lot of our opinions about daily life. The peeling away of which has helped
us to overcome our self-defeating, self-fulfilling wasting of time, energy, and enthusiasm.
At this point, we might say that we have learned something. But it is probably more
accurate, to say that we have unlearned something. Or, maybe, we have unlearned a great
many things, that we once thought to be true.
The point is, while doing zazen, Zen meditation — with no particular motive, no specific
reason — there certainly can be no wasting of time. Time can be wasted only if it is set
against a motive, a purpose, a desire, or expectation; that somehow we are not
accomplishing.
But fortunately, in zazen, we have the potential to sink into real time. That is, we have
the potential to set aside our wristwatch, our jailkeeper — even though, for practical
reasons, we may time our sitting. During the time that we are sitting, we can relinquish
this mental construct — our conceptual hold, our compulsive dependency — on
measured time.
Matsuoka roshi spoke of the eternal moment. This eternal moment is the time that we
enter into, when we sit in zazen. Someone said that sitting in zazen, the barriers of time
and space fall away. We’ve all had this experience, of time seeming to pass in the blink
of an eye, or taking forever, stretching out into an eternity, even though the measured
amount of time is about the same — a half hour, or an hour. On the cushion, this occurs
frequently. The apprehension of time — our direct experience of it — has less and less to
do with the average experience of time that we may recall — the familiarity of measured
time. Half an hour on the cushion may seem much more than half an hour. Or much less.
Once we have gone through the day retreat, the week-long sesshin, or the three-month
ango, looking back on them in retrospect, they seem diminishingly small, like no time at
all. So time seems to have this kind of Doppler effect, like the familiar experience of a
train coming toward you at the railroad crossing. The sound of the train, the train’s
whistle increases not only in volume, but also raises in pitch; and then, as the train passes
by, the pitch and volume both drop away. This is called the Doppler effect in sound; it
has a corollary in light, with the red- and blue-shift in the spectrum of light from galaxies,
moving away and toward each other, respectively.
In our conception of time, the way we think we experience or perceive it, there is also this
kind of effect, if only in our imagination. Things in the future seem to be much more
demanding, and difficult; and the amount of time comprised of a day, a week, a month or
three months, or even a year’s prison sentence; seems to be highly exaggerated. Whereas,
looking back at the past day, week, month, or year, seems compressed, shrunk down
virtually to nothing. This is also true of relatively brief events, daily practice of an hour or
so, but less so.
As we sit for longer periods of time, and over the passage of time — attending day-long
retreats or week-long sesshin — this re-tuning of time becomes even more extreme.
Until, gradually, we find ourselves sinking into real time, at all times.
This is the way that one’s meditation can serve to help one to enter into real time, the
eternal moment. In this eternal moment, all things have become possible. We have all the
time in the world; we have nothing more than time; time is all that we have. We have
been liberated from our conception of time, which was at the root of the trouble, the
cause, of our wasting so much time up until now.
This kind of freedom, or liberation, from measured time, is not the kind that is dependent
upon circumstance. The circumstances of our life may remain essentially unchanged.
What has changed is our view, our level of reactivity, our perception and conception of
our circumstances; including how much time we actually have, as opposed to how much
time we merely think we have.
Exploring this series of eight talks hopefully will bring about a mindset that opens our
awareness to this kind of real time, and to the dynamic reality of the Paramitas,
particularly that of meditation, as functioning vitally in our daily lives. By combining this
study with meditation, the depth and breadth of the meaning of the Paramitas will
become clear, in a way that is natural to you.
© 2010 Zenkai Taiun Michael Joseph Elliston
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